Monday, September 30, 2013

I'm not going to college.



I get the same question from every team, usually multiple times. I used to hate answering it, because I'm afraid they won't like my answer.

"What are your plans after you finish high school?"

While I understand their curiosity about whether I plan to stay here or go to college in the states, I hate the pressure it puts on me. Because for the longest time, I knew what I was supposed to do, but I also knew what the world was telling me to do, and those two answers didn't exactly line up. As a matter of fact, they were exact opposites, and I didn't know what to do about it. I didn't know how people would respond. What would people think? What would my parents think?

For so long, I had my plans all laid out for me. I thought I would do like the average person- graduate high school, get a college degree, get a job, climb the corporate ladder- but since moving here, I've realized that those were my plans-not His, and His plans are so much better than mine could ever be. I think that sometimes, when we pursue God without abandon, its going to look at little crazy. People aren't necessarily going to agree with you, and you are going to stand out. You will be judged, you'll be mocked, you'll be persecuted, but above all else, you will be right where God wants you, and that's all that really matters. 

I've known now for a long time that Guatemala was where I was supposed to be, but I kept it a secret, because I was afraid of what I would have to face if people knew.  Everyone else seemed to think I should got to college, if nothing else but for the experience. After talking with a new friend in Washington, I've learned that "There's nothing more selfish than spending 4 years and $80,000 on an experience." That kind of puts it into perspective.

I think that if God is calling you to go to college, then by all means you better be there, but if he's not, why waste your resources for a degree that you'll never use?  And if you are in a season of waiting, if you're not sure what His plans are for your life, then do the only thing that you know for sure is what you've been called to do-make disciples. We live in such a time that it is so easy to go back to school if the Lord calls you to do so at a later time, so I think its okay to wait until God gives you the answers.

Its been cool the way that every time someone comes along and tells me that I'm wrong, making me doubt, God has sent someone to reassure me.

"For I know the plans I have for you declares the Lord..."

And so I continue walking close to Him and seeking His guidance for my future.

Friday, September 20, 2013

Update

It has been way to long since I've posted and a lot has gone on in the meantime, including a trip to the Domincan Republic, two trips to the states, my brother's wedding and the first child at Village of Hope, so I think its time to catch up with these pictures while I write a more in-depth post.